Musings...

I love making my regular paychecks again. It is a beautiful thing. So today is my day off and I am loving it. I don't have to guard a bunch of little screaming children or have patrons asking a shit load of inane questions like what the temperature of the pool is. I am just sitting here reading, watching TV and then chilling with friends. Today is going to be wonderful!!!

So work is finally setting in! I am starting to get back into the swing of things at the pool. I like all the ppl that I am working with right now and can't wait to start lessons. The thing I am looking forewards to the most is gotta be the money though. Sadly I miss out on the pay check this period so I wont get mine until like 2 more weeks pass :( That sucks. There was some hint at rain right before I left today but nothin really happened. Schadenfreud or however you spell it. I hate it when the night staff always gets to close the pool when the storms come by in the afternoon. Pisses me the fuck off! But anywho they didn't get it today so HA to all those little fuckers.

I have to go into volunteer tomorrow at the school library so I can get my hours for my scholarship which is so stupid. They are so fucking unorganized when it comes to things like this! They also need to come up with better ideas to get points. Honestly they disappoint me.

OOOH Today we are watching Heros and eating/making brownies with Susie. I can't wait I haven't seen her in a little bit! Though we did run into each other in the grocery today after work right after I had talked to her :)

Well the books are calling me!

So it's been a little over 3 days that I've been back in St. Pete. It's really nice being able to sleep again in my own bed, thats large enough and my feet don't hang off the fucking end when I sleep. Catching up with friends has been... interesting to say the least. People have changed alot and I've missed some important events.

Hopefully this sumer will serve to rebind some of the bonds that have been broken over the past couple years.

So fuck this shit. I have spent another day wasted in the library studying for this damn chemistry final that I have in a little less than two hours. I wish I could just take it now and get it over with. i honestly don't think I can fit anything else into my brain right now without it exploding! *POP*

So I woke up earlier than I should have today (classes are over WHEEEE!!!!) to go get breakfast before work. We get there and they don't open until 10:30 :( So Im here at the computer lab piddling around till they decide to open their doors and let people come in.

Tengo tanto hambre... I even had a dream that people were throwing fod at me before I woke up this morning. Deadly flying tater tots. Wow tater tots is a real word in the dictionary!

Anywho... Susie and I watched two really good movies last night after studying for too long of a time period for Chemistry, which we will probably be doing again today after work :(

It was the first time that Susie had ever seen Silence of the Lambs. I realized again how great the movie really is. I never really get bored of watching it. Susie was really tense throughout the entire movie! I wanted her to jump or scream but I decided against startling her. Hmmm maybe I'm changing?

Then we watched Interview With A Vampire *drool* and thats all I am going to say. ;-)

You don't really realize how fast time passes when you spend it in front of a computer.

I have to call my job today and figure out what I have to do to get processed again. I actually need to do that right now...but I'm in a computer lab so that would be rude. I'll just have to remember to do it after work. It will be nice to be working and making actual money again and the ability to have overtime that is consequential will be marvelous. The only thing I'm really not looking forewards to is going to be putting up with my supervisors' bull shit. I mean honestly. It makes me wonder why they think that they have to right to patronize me they way they do. I can do my job much more efficiently than they can do theirs AND when they have to "break it down for me" like I am some sort of child I sometimes feel like ramming the lane rope rachet down their throats. Just because they are older than me does not make them A) any smarter or B) any more responsible than I am.

Its funny how not only adults but society in general as well seems to take that stance on judging. I know plenty of "adults" who really shouldn't be allowed to have anyone's life in their hands, be it through a job or child rearing. Maybe we should start focusing on breaking down these age barriers that automatically designate our roles in society and instruct us in how we should function.

But then again what do I know since I am just and angst ridden and irresponsible teenager who has no clues as to how the "real world" works.

So for the past 4 hours Susie and I have been sitting here studying for out chem final. UGH. Make it stop.

On the other hand classes ended today so I will be alot more free in the near future save for the days that I have to work. The time that I spend there is quite inconsequential though. My French exam is coming up on next Wednesday so that won't require alot of studying and I enjoy studying for French.

There was something that I wanted to mention or at least bring up... damn I can't believe I forgot something so quickly even when I'm typing.

I know there was something of consequence that I wanted to talk about... I hope this wont happen when I'm in the middle of an exam.

There is much to reflect upon this past year, but I don't think that this is the time to do such a thing.

God I wonder what else I can put down...

My thoughts have been so shattered lately, I've been having trouble focusing on even the smallest tasks. Things, though, are slowly falling into place for the summer. i wonder how much this shattering of my thoughts is my own doing.

So after a turn for the better last night life is looking good!

I just got out of my bio practical that i think I did really well in and I don't think that I have that much stress the rest of this week save for studying a little for a couple classes! This semester is almost over so I am hoping to use this happiness and store it up as a buffer for what is come...

But Ina and Bela are on their way and we are about to have dinner! I love them so so much and its been forever since we've hung out and it sucks! AND I get to watch Happy Feet with Susie tomorrow night!!!

Life is good.

So it was amazing. i had such a good time at Gay Prom with everyone. The ride up there was fun. i got to spend time with Jahanna, something I haven't been able to do in a long time. <3 Then when we got there everyone was running around like chickens with their heads cut off trying to get ready for this prom thing. I helped set up and made a bad ass balloon arch type thing.

The DJ was an ass though. We had set up playlists for songs that we knew people would dance to but he decided to take matters into his own hands and play some crappy remixes of songs that no one was dancing to! I don't think he saw that when he strayed form what we told him to pay people stopped dancing. The ignorance of some people is flooring.

The weekend was good bonding time for everyone. Relationships were strengthened and it was just overall a great weekend. I hope everyone else had as good of a time as I did.

I also just got back from advising today and my classes are fine and I can volunteer down in St. Pete over the summer to get my hours! I can't wait I get to be back down with my friends and family! Life is wonderful.

Well off to chem!

    Jahanna turned 20 today and in celebration we are all piling into her car and going to Tally for the weekend so we can go to FSU's Gay Prom. Its funny cause we actually just got back from ours. I ha da couple people come up to me and comment on the fact that I was dressed to "Casual" for a prom like theme. Well fuck them. I am tired of people telling me what is appropriate to wear in certain situations. If I can wear what I want and there is no dress code stopping me I will come how I damn well please.
    This weekend should be amazing, hopefully. I think a reading is in store. Just for a little guidance. Hopefully it will be smooth sailing. *crosses fingers*

Peace

So I really never keep up with my life on this thing. Its quite sad actually but anyways here is another sporadic update for the Chronicles of Casey.

Spring Break has passed and was amazing. Life has only been looking up. Classes are going well, stress has been down, I have an OPI for French coming up but I dont think its going to be that bad at all. i also have a bio exam coming up on Friday that I think I will do fine on. This weekend I will be spending time with my family and helping them celebrate easter. I should be leaving Saturday and should be back Sunday. Though i don't really wanna leave... I need to cause I haven't seen them in a long time and I think my aunt needs help with all the kids and everything because her husband is pulling an extended shift. So super Casey to the rescue. I just hope nothing fun pops up this weekend. Honestly I hope Jahanna doesn't want to have her party in celebration of her birthday this weekend. Ugh I would hate to miss that. Yuri's birthday is coming up in the middle of the week and I think I know what I want to do for him. Seems to be a pattern in how we celebrate stuff. LoLs. But anyways... Next weekend should be super fun also beacue we should be going to Tally (ROADTRIP!!!) to visit Christie for their Gay Prom. I can't wait. i just hope that they play better music than they do at UC because quite frankly I am tired of the hard driving beats of techno. i want some rump shaking reggaeton damnit! Lols. Wow Im a dork. Anyways... another thing I hope doesn't happen. They say its like proma dn therefore it is going to be very formal. But I don't want to dress up in a suit and tie at all. i just wanna go you know semi formal and shake my booty with friends.

I realize now that I really do miss my sisters. I miss knowing whats going on in their life and all that stuff. I should be getting a letter from Berkley, how random is that, in the mail. So I dont know what its about. I think it would have been alot easier to send me something via email but I guess not. We'll see...

More time to burn more time to burn... oh well cant think of anything else I want to rant about that I want to be public knowledge. Off to donate blood!

<3

So spring break just started and I got home yesterday evening. This is a time I just need to relax and forget about everything about Gainesville. Sleep without class is amazing! Though my one worry is I am going to get bored with really nothing to do during the day.
 
However there are basic planes in place for fun things to do during the week. Trip tot the beach, tubing trip meby, clubbing tonight. BLAH BLAH BLAH and so on and so forth. I just need this time to recoup and recharge both mentally and emotionally.

More to come on Spring Break 2007!

So I actually didn't procrastinate on something! It was amazing, yesterday i finished an essay that I have to turn in on Friday for African American Studies! I finished it! There will be no last minute rushing or anything. We week just got a whole lot less stressful. The thing that would make this week perfect would be not having a Lab Practical for Biology tomorrow but eh... what are you going to do. I am actually supposed to be studying for that now and will continue to do so once I finish this entry. It should be interesting I don't know what to expect with this "Practical" but... Im good at biology so I'm hoping everything goes over well!!!

So after finishing another OPI for French (which are painfully easy by the way) I am stuck in CIRCA doing absolutely nothing until Bio class. I don't have enough time to go back to my place and start any HW cause I would have to walk right back to Bio as soon as I sat down. Plus that would be a hell of a lot of walking. I guess I could be studying for the French exam that I have but I really don't feel like doing that either. I mean when we have these test all I really worry about is the vocabulary due to spelling and accent marks. The grammar is simple. Also the exams are really short so its like do I really need to study that much because not that much vocabulary is actually on them. But no I do need to study because lets face it I made a 90 on my last French exam and that is a little bit too close to a B for me in a Foreign Language.

I also have a Bio exam that I need to study for and a Bio practical that I need to study for and these wouldn't be that bad if I didn't have a 10 page essay that I have to write for African American Studies that is due next Friday. I should have started the paper a while back when I had nothing to do but did I do that? No of course not. I wait till the last minute with everything! You think I would have learned by now that I need to stop doing stuff like this, but its just so painful to actually do something so far ahead. There is no pressure to do it and I just end up fucking around instead of actually doing what needs to be done.

Though I do have Spring Break to look forewards too! It should be amazing! Finally a time to rest and recoup before everything goes insane the second part of this Spring Semester.  There are two possibilities right now for what is going to happen on Spring Break. We will either be going to  Ft. Lauderdale for a couple days and then heading over to St. Pete or we will be going camping for a couple days and then going to St. Pete.

I am so tired.

Why do I always procrastinate?

BLAH

    So today I have Salsa class again. Ina and I are there tearing it up every week. I love the class so much. You learn alot too! We are dancing in traditional rueda style. You switch partners and everything! Its really really fun! Its also fun to watch all the other people screw up when they are dancing. Ina has had horrible luck with guys as partners. We really wish we could step back and just learn the steps and just dance together and not switch partners. We would learn it alot faster! But none the less it is amazing.

    Jahanna and her girl are in town so I hope they don't leave until a lot later tonight because I don't get out of salsa until 7 and then we could have dinner afterwards. I <3 Christie shes so much fun!

    Anyways... back to cleaning my room!

    So today I tried to go to the bank today so I could get my bank statement so I could finish filing my taxes. When I showed up there the bank was closed! Why on a Saturday would a bank be closed? Gainesville is so fucked up. It need to be infused with real city-ness. So walking back to my dorm I get a call from Susie. She and Sarah had locked the keys in the car and wanted to know if I could use my AAA for them. Sadly I couldn't :( I couldn't risk losing anymore of my free services. I dropped Yuri's keys off and then he had the good idea of calling the bank directly. So I called them and apparently I have waited for nothing. I didn't make enough interest to even need to file the interest. I was waiting for a week for absolutely nothing ARRRGHH!!!!
   
   

Dejame decirles, Encontre mi nuevo club favorito! On the second floor of Rehab on friday nights it is Latin Music night. Now we had searched all around downtown looking for a place to go and The Venue was a bust. It was totally empty! So we thought that the night was going to be a bust. Mind you this is even after I locked the keys in the car with the car still running. Yeah I am a total ditz at times. But anyways... so we are scouring downtown for some latin music and we can't find any so we get in line for Rehab. When these two spanish girls started talking and we asked if they knew of any spanish clubs. And it all history after that. We found the upstairs after a few hit and misses cause drunk people give bad directions and plus the club was packed. The DJ was A-FUCKING-MAZING! We got there and it was Caile and then he went into this salsa, reggaeton, pitbull, bachata mix that mixed incredibly well. He even played Merengue and of course Ina and I had to kill it. Tonight was absolutely amazing. That is my new most favorite club in all of Gainesville, hell in all of the west coast of Florida.

God I <3 Latin Music

    So today I totally slept right through African American Studies. There was no way I was getting up. I needed to sleep badly. I also skipped out on work today and went swimming in this amazing weather. It is beautiful outside. I have all of my windows open letting the light bathe me. I love the sun.
   
    Last night was amazing. I went over to Jahanna's house and ate my body weight in chicken, lasagne, stuffed shells and greek salad and I will admit I drank a little too ;). THen when 11 o clock rolled around it was time to go out to UC but we all felt like giant balloons of food UGH. We end up there around midnight and I needed that so badly. Even though the music wasn't that good in the beginning I just needed to let loose. So I did. I thoroughly enjoyed myself. I love dancing. OH tonight I'm going dancing again! I dunno how that is gonna work out cause I'll be dancing with a girl :-/ but you know whatever. Shes me best friend and if she really wants to go out then I'll be there to support her.

    Then Sunday is salsa classes!!! I am so freaking excited I cant wait! I <3 salsa sooo much.

    Today has been a good day <3

    OK so yesterday when I was walking to Chemistry through Turlington Plaza I head someone gritando al cielo about something. I take off my headphones and lo and behold there is another preacher and its Daniel who's  totally tearing him a new one. Now I have no problem with Christianity AT ALL. My family is Christian I was raised with "Christian values" and I respect all different religions. It is the individuals that take it upon themselves to try and force their religion onto others that I have no respect for.

    I don't understand why we can't just all worship what we want to or not worship at all, why there has to be so much animosity against those who are not of the same fayth. Its all beyond me. I think the way I was raised  "Do unto others as you would like others to do unto you". I mean it seems simple enough for me.

    But then again I'm just a 16 yo simpleton ;-)

    Ok so this weekend was amazing. I went down to St. Pete with Yuri for my sisters 13th birthday party. I didn't know how it was going pass. Luckily it was amazing. We all ended up having a great time (even though G Bar plays crappy music) and he received a whole hearted invitation to come back whenever he pleases from my mother!

    Things have certainly changed since I have left.
   
    Now the hard part is convincing them that it would be fine for me to go to NYC in the fall and study there for a semester *GULP*

    Spring break is also coming up! However before that I have this lovely 10 page essay on Hip Hop that I have to write for my African American Studies class. That is the only thing standing between me and Miami!

    Mmmm... tummy grumbling.... food time!

    So again it has been another long ass stretch of time that I have spent away from the computer. I never seem to carry through with things like this. So much for keeping it up to date huh? Well anyways French got out early so I am sitting here doing things that need to get done.

    I got my financial aid situation finally straightened out. That, however, is not a good thing. Last semester I received $500 in financial aid deposited into my bank account which paid for my books and then some. This semester I only received $115. A HUGE red flag went up when I saw this. I had been dealing with the financial aid office for a while trying to figure out why the difference while the entire time knowing why, just not wanting to face it. With having 16 credit hours this semester and TWO lab which both have huge fees the amount of money that got disbursed was correct. The lab fees sucked up all of my book money and now I am in the hole $200 for my books :(
   
    Life is starting to get a little stressful and I need to stay on top of things. With my classes starting to pile on the shit I am a little worried that if I start my usual procrastination routine that I will be swallowed alive.

    On the bright side however Yuri got off Spring break and hopefully we will be road tripping all over the place. By all over I mean to Miami for a couple days and then back to St. Pete for a couple more. It should be great.

    So this has been a nice little break in the middle of my horrible Wednesday. A little breather between the 6 hours of class that I have back to back to back to back to back to back. Ugh